Tanja Mae

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When you get that, DON'T STOP!!!!!!

defintely a keep

Why would a person say such a thing?

I managed to say I was sorry too, somewhere in there :-). I asked him if he had thought of leaving me- He said he didnt think of it seriously, but it had crossed his mind. He just hugged me and locked me in his arms. after some time I extricated myself form out hug and said that we needed to talk. He again said, that the thought had crossed his mind, but it was more like when he felt angry with me, rather than any consideration. We had the most honest discussion that a man and woman could have. I was continuing to hit him while he was forcibly trying to subdue me and he did finally do that. But I told him I would rather be considered a wet sock rather than to make him uncomfortable again. I just dont know what happened, but I lost it completely. We didnt get out of bed till 10 the next day. He said that he forgives me and let us move on now. it was so intense that I would have climaxed. I wrote down everything I wanted to tell him, how sorry I was, and how I will never do anything remotely like this again. I gave him it to him, tounge and all. He said "lets talk". That I loved him more than I can love anyone in my life. my arms folded between our chests so that I couldnt move it. I just kept looking at him, not saying anything, still rolling out tears. He said he that we should, but that he needed to do something else first. I was screaming that he doesnt get to leave me because I loved him. but what I was saying and what I was doing were both opposite things. It was forceful and tender at the same time, no tounge but i felt it was the most intense kiss that I have ever recieved in my life. and then I kissed him. He came and sat on the bed beside me and took my hand and kissed it, and when he tried to hug me I just lost it. I was hitting him and scratching him and pulling his hair, and screaming at him. I would have given my life for this man at that moment. anyway after that ha picked me up and went to the living room and sat on an armchair and put me sideways on his lap with my head on his chest, his one hand stroking my hair and the other my leg. I asked him if he had felt he would have been better off with a girl from his own background. we stayed like that for a long time. But sitting there on his bed in the dark, with my knees to my chest and blanet up to my nect, I felt miserable and incredibly sad, and I couldnt stop crying. I told him that I needed to know his feelings at that time before I could move on. He listened to me without interrupting me other than place a couple of kisses on my nose. i Was feeling desperate to connect to him and I went and waited at his appartment. It was not bawling, but the tears wouldnt stop. He explained how he felt, and why he felt. then he took my face in both his hands and gave me a long and beautiful kiss. He kissed my hair and was rocking me, He said its ok. I told him that was sorry, sorry that i did that because it hurt him, and that I will never do anything like that. He told me that he was not leaving me, and not to worry, I was just sobbing my face against his neck. I got up and straddled him and took his face in my hands now, and looked into his eyes and told him that I was truly sorry and I regret it totally, and that he would probably be more comfortable with a girl of his own background, but I will be the best partner he canaver have, because I will love him like no one else can, and that I will constantly work on our relationship and that I will never again put our relationship at risk by my actions. He told me that he knew that. Then he picked me up and took me to the bedroom and made we made all night. I explained my thoughts at that time to him and also that I had also felt that I would have been a wet sock in that company if I wasn't a sport. We didnt sleep, we just snuggled and kissed and talked between love making. It was pretty much what we had discussed here. He came back later that night and when he came into the bedroom and turned on the light- he saw me like that and was taken aback.

where can I see more of the left girl? really?

I think it says a lot about her that she would apparently be ok with her husband working his butt off all of the time just so she can sit at home, travel, and not have to pay for anything herself. That is what your girlfriend wants from marriage. Your girlfriend doesn't speak for all women. Be glad that you found this out before you got engaged or married to her.

He kept being vague / evading the issue and my attempts at defining the relationship.. Every time I brought up that term, he would get jumpy and all defensive. Reminds me of my ex. I told him in no unclear terms that I did not want a FWB.